| Location | Heckmondwike, West Yorkshire |
| Age | 1 month, 4 days |
| Cause of Death | Cot Death/Sudden Infant Death Syndrome |
| Date of Birth | 31/10/2005 |
| Date of Death | 05/12/2005 |
| Visitors | 1,910 since 24/02/2008 |
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our gorgeous baby girl was born to her mummy Brianne Briggs and daddy Gareth stocks on 31st October 2005 and passed away 5th December 2005 aged 5 wks due to S.I.D.S
She left behind a big sister Mia and brother Mason. she also has a little sister Ruby now who was born 11th may 2007 who she will never be able to meet, love or play with.
a special nanny, uncle Craig and holly left heartbroken and lost when she died.
Amber was my 3rd pregnancy and she was born 6 wks prem but weighed a good weight of 4lbs 14oz by emergency c-section as she got distressed and my waters had broken early. we tried everything to keep u in longer but u couldn't wait to arrive and meet the family.
she was born quick and safe at 12.21pm with my mum by my side as Gareth was at home, not knowing she was being born and was looking after our other 2 who was only nearly 3 and 19 months at the time.
they took her to the Neo-natal unit at dewsbury hospital. she had no problems with being early only low sugar levels. mason was born 4wks early 19 months before and had problems breathing and he was 7lbs 6oz. a big prem baby. but Amber was perfect, tiny but early.
she came home after i established breast feeding. breast is best they all said to me, and i fed my other 2 the same way.
She was so perfect a tiny little doll. so small daddy was frightened to hold her i loved her so much as her sister did. we made sure she knew she was a having a baby sister and she got a dolly who she called that, for Amber's arrival.
we registered u Amber Holly Stocks and not long after when u had been home from hospital at 3 1/2 wks u stopped breathing in my arms. u went all grey and limp. i was so afraid but adrenalin kicks in so i rang children's ward then a ambulance. u had nurses coming all the time to check u, your weight etc. but i mentioned one day u weren't waking up in the night for feed and going 5 hrs at a time in night with no milk and u were snuffly. so i went to hospital to the children's ward to have u checked out. they said nothing.
the ambulance arrived when i had to give u CPR in front of my kids a memory i can never forget. they got ya breathing u again and told me u had got pneumonia and your lung had deflated and u later contacted rsa. a respiratory infection. with antibiotics, an in haler and oxygen u recovered and after 8 days with me in hospital we took u home again.
but sadly 8 days after u came home u passed away anytime from midnight 5th December to 3am when i found u dead.
its a all a blur i went in the ambulance with u. praying it was all a dream and u were was going to be ok. but same hospital i knew u had gone. my mum was with me when they called your death. the same hospital u had been born 5 wks before.
i have never felt this much pain and heartache at all before i felt low depressed and none of it was real.
your daddy came to see you in your moses basket and i have never seen him cry as he did for u amber.
they needed to do tests so we had to say goodbye till u came to the funereal home.
the little service was held 14th December the day after u was supposed to be born and u were laid to rest in the cemetery where mummy and daddy are going to be buried.
that's it your life of 5 wks. like a 1000 words. hardly no photos or memories. the love is still there 3 yrs on. u would have been 3 this yr. u have achieved no milestones, sitting up, eating, playing, walking, crawling and most specially talking.
my anger depression is still there and i seem fine to people around and i know i don't talk about u alot but i love and still care. i haven't got over losing u and never will.
days get better and the sun shines, but i would give anything to see and meet u once again.
there wasn't enough cuddles, baths, anything u was supposed to do. i cry buckets when everyone is not around i love u so much and wish lots of wishes 4 u.
S.I.D.S need to be cured and be made to vanish because i wouldn't want any other parent to go through what i had to. gods sake i was 23yrs old at the time. i felt i was 5 again when u went, but i knew i had to be there for ya brother and sister and now your new sister ruby.
"an angel u are up in the sky. u fly so high and high. playing with your angel friends at the pearly gates, but i wish i could she your changing smiling face. i will come one day to see u again to hold u tight with all of my might and we will grow old and be reunited again.
love u lots baby angel Amber Holly, i love and miss u loads just hope u know me when i meet u in heaven one day. bye bye bye baby
xxxMUMMYxxx
merry xmas
hi my baby well oscar had his 1st xmas today, 1 u never got to have with us all and never will. hope u have had a lovely day in the sky with all your angel friends just wish u was here to spend 1 xmas with mummy and daddy. love u lots and miss u soooooooooooo much angel. sweet dreams xxxxxxxxxx
Hi sweetie xxx
Hiya Amber i've been thinking about you and all your family. Im sorry i didn't get on yestaday but we were thinking of you hunnie.Hope you have been having lots of fun in heaven with Jayden.Wish you two knew each other on earth and not in heaven.Keep close to all your family sweetie. We have a xmas card for you here i will send it to your mummy.Keep watch over all your family xxxxxxxx
Merry Christmas sweetheart x x x
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happy 5th birthday my sweet heart
i am so sorry i didnt post this yesterday i have not been on here for along time.
your brother has arrived at 32wks + 6 days a day after mummys birthday on the 21st october a whole days b4 u did and i have been so busy travelling up to leeds to see him he was 4lb 6oz a whole wk less thank u when u was born and 8oz less in weight please keep him safe im really scared we will lose him like we did u its 2 close toyour story.
ihope u liked your balloons and your pink lantern we left yesterday and heard us sing happy birthday at your special place. we got some lovely photos of ya bro and sisters with your 2 aunties.
i cant believe u r suppossed to be 5 already 5 whole yrs have passed since u was born,u r suppossed to be at full time school now with your bro and sister not in heaven.
we love and miss u very much my darling happy birthday and sweet dreams xxx
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baby brother
hi ya sweet heart. well mummy is 21 wks preg wi ya baby brother keep him safe till he arrives i have left u a foto to keep looking at him love and miss u lots sweetheart xxx
mothers day xxx
just wish i could have spent just 1 mothers day wi u, instead i will just have to think of you in heaven and make do. your brother and sisters will make this day special 4 me but all i want sum days is to have you here again wi me. never 4get my angel girl. lots of love and hugs 2 u amber from mummy xxx xxx xxx thinking of u my special girl today love u xxx
merry 4th xmas
hiiiiiii my baby girl. just a little note to u to say we have been thinking of u today on your special 4th xmas, cant believe its been 4 xmas's wi out u.
i have given nanny a lil something to keep to think of u today. we love and miss u loads my darling angel.
i will come down to your special real soon to chat to my cheeky doll.
love u lots amber-holly merry christmas
love mummy, daddy, mia, mason and ruby xxx
4yrs today your angelversary
hi my baby girl. just tried to keep busy today wi ya bro and sisters to occupy my mind so all i didnt think of is today this was the day u died. i love and miss u sooooo much my lil girl and just wish u was here wi us and i would do anything to have stopped wat happened 2u that night so sids wouldn't have taken u away and made u go to heaven far to soon, u had only gone 5 wks old not a age to die.
but i cant dwell anymore that u r not hear my life had to go on to look after ya bro and sisters even tho i want u back more than ever but i know that the only way i will cu is when i die when i am grey and old.
so i will night night sweet-pea and hope u r being a good girl up in the sky and like your santa's msg i made for u
love u lots xxxmummyxxx
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